Friendship on Ice.

I hate it when I feel friendships slip away from me - if it's been a great friendship it's like having a rug pulled away from under your feet. Your life looses balance a little while. I hate it because mostly, I cannot control it. I don't like it when there's something I cannot control. It's like seeing someone standing on a cliff, looking down the hill, my body feels like jell-O and I want to tear them away from the edge. Friends slipping away from you is not as easy to force back as a person on an edge, darn it.



A former best friend I had in second grade and I always used to say bestfriends for ever, at least for a while, and I know we were right. At least on my behalf. I don't think I can ever keep a bestfriend my whole life - I'm sixteen and I've had, what, eight or nine? And I stopped with the bestfriend stupidity in nineth grade. Friends aren't supposed to be favourized(in my opinion), they all stand for different values and different interests, and stand for different sides of yourself. Why waste many friends to have to just have one close friend? The more the merrier, and the more you learn about yourself.

One day the paths will part.

But then again, through life, we grow, make new experiences and gain new wisdom. We grow apart every day passing by, in one way or another, and it goes by so slowly that one day you stand there and wonder when it all happened - when now became then, and what you've taken for granted turn to dust as you turn it over. That day,as the rug is pulled away, and the house of cards shatter, that's a hard day to face. When you suddenly realize that you no longer can trust a friend or have anything you want to share with it, because you have no shared interests. It's just sticking together for the friendship you had.

I believe that different friends are important in dfferent stages of life, and perhaps not someone you are supposed to keep your whole life.

Meeting friends you once had on the street is always a strange encounter. Some you nod at, and smile a forced smile. Some you stop and chat with because you actually miss them, but some you walk straight past. People you in some stage of your life have imagined some of the most important to you, suddenly become strangers? I know I have a few of those. Is it only me losing friends on a quite regular basis, but at the same time gaining new ones?

I have the feeling like someone is toeing the rug I stand on as I write, and I know it'll get pulled away any time soon, and all the dust we've been hiding underneath it for so long will come spiralling up towards me - I just don't know from which direction it'll disappear.


(picture taken by my sis.)

What do you think? Best friend or great friends?
Have you lost great friends?
Do you have a bestfriend, and if yes, how long have you been bestfriends?


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